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GOODMORNING (:
it's morning,1.11am now.
and it's raining,very heavily.some low part of my house here are fully flooded.
but idk i still can't get to sleep.
i play dress up for the last 2hours to entertain myself & listening to 987FM.
anyway,FARAH&BRYAN and accompany me to make my ic on monday and to celebrate my birthday,cause farah couldn't make it on tues,the actual day.& i haven't ask nysah./
i had a major quarrel with daddy just now.cause he's going to celebrate my brother birthday,next year.then i ask him if i can celebrate my,NO,was the only answer,i felt so unfair,i mean why can he have it while i can't. yeah,i got to say,it's plainJEALOUS.i'm jealous that my parents always treat jon as if he's the only child.everytime when we're talking,they will surely say,jon this,jon that.i'm sick and tired of it,i talk to them about this before,and they say blame it for me being dumber than him,much more useless than him,idk if they felt anything when they say it but it totally hurt me,how can they,my beloved parents say,I'M USELESS?!they nv care for my school work,but when i did badly for the exams they will say that i'm a disappointment,stupid and stuff like that.but when jon have a exma or something,if he do badly,they say it's okay.how can they do that?jon gets whatever he wants.i mean whatever! i hate to be treated like this,i felt so @#$%^&.